Monday I talked to my sister-in-law. She is heart broken. My brother has left her. I was shocked. Blown away to be for sure. My life story is becoming more and more complicated. What I used to see as black and white is becoming smeared and smudged. People are all shades of gray. God is who paints the colors. Wounds turn to scars...over time. The scar remains to remind us of past pain and shows us we have prevailed and endured the pain. Not necessarily with grace, and certainly not with out feeling. (Oh to feel...)
Some scars are on the surface for others to see. Some are hidden. Others are seen as beauty marks instead of blemishes. Some scars are light, and others dark and ugly. Some scars remind of past choices and mistakes. Yet others are from the choices and actions of others. It doesn't diminish the pain felt in the moment.
Speaking of moments. Moments are crazy things. One moment you are flying on top of the world. The next moment you have face planted. If you believe in God you know He is there to lift you and help you brush off...if you ask for His help. One moment you believe there is something more out there, and the next moment you feel left alone, with no where to turn, no one who can understand. We cherish some moments, looking back in fondness and love. Others are painful and and yet they can teach us things only taught through experience alone.
Tomorrow will be a new day. The picture that was supposed to be will be changed...again but just as real as ever before. What will I make of my master piece in the making? What will you make of yours?
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Monday, June 26, 2017
Wedding
We made it out to our Second daughters wedding. We left on Friday. One of our children was sick twice on the way out. I was sick all day Thursday into Friday morning. Friday evening they had a beautiful preception!
While at the preception the bride looked beautiful, and the groom very handsome. We had many friends from the past show up. It was great being able to catch up with everyone. The food was beyond delicious. The bride and groom had a considerable turn out. I enjoyed meeting friends and colleagues, and cross paths with some I haven't had the opportunity to see for years.
On their wedding day we ended up having another sick child. We were able to run up and see our son who is serving his mission caught a quick hug or two, met his companion and then we were on our way back to my aunts where the child continued to be sick. I had hoped to be at the sealing and show my support and excitement for the new couple. My hubby told me it was beautiful and that he found what the sealer shared to be noteworthy.
In the end we ended up coming home earlier than we had planned so we could be sick in our own beds. Overall it was a great trip. It is a pleasure to see our family growing and expanding as it is. I pray that the new couple will be happy and continue to be a strength for one another.
While at the preception the bride looked beautiful, and the groom very handsome. We had many friends from the past show up. It was great being able to catch up with everyone. The food was beyond delicious. The bride and groom had a considerable turn out. I enjoyed meeting friends and colleagues, and cross paths with some I haven't had the opportunity to see for years.
On their wedding day we ended up having another sick child. We were able to run up and see our son who is serving his mission caught a quick hug or two, met his companion and then we were on our way back to my aunts where the child continued to be sick. I had hoped to be at the sealing and show my support and excitement for the new couple. My hubby told me it was beautiful and that he found what the sealer shared to be noteworthy.
In the end we ended up coming home earlier than we had planned so we could be sick in our own beds. Overall it was a great trip. It is a pleasure to see our family growing and expanding as it is. I pray that the new couple will be happy and continue to be a strength for one another.
Thursday, June 1, 2017
A lot of Happiness Happening this Year
I can hardly believe this year is almost to the halfway mark! Where does the time go? So many exciting things have happened this year or are in full-swing to happening, and they are all exhilarating!
I became a grandmother in January! Our oldest son and his wife added a beautiful little girl to our growing family! She has the most contagious smile! Our son and his wife are the cutest parents, they are doing great! The grand baby loves having her parents sing to her and she knows they love her to pieces. What more can a little one ask for.
Our Second daughter was unexpectedly swept away by the man of her dreams. It has been a pleasant surprise, and as a parent so fun to watch. He treats her like his queen, and she lives up to the title beautifully. They will be tying the knot here this month and we are so excited for both of them!
Also in January our Second son and his wife started a new adventure further from home. Luckily not as distant as the others. He is only 45 minutes away. It has been pleasant to see how he and his wife are becoming their own adulting selves. they are flourishing there, and everyone I talk to adores them almost as much as I do. I love it when others see in my loved ones what I see in them. even better is when they notice things I have not yet discovered. Seriously, the church is such a blessing!
Our oldest at home right now will be going into middle school this year! I am a little freaked out at how quickly these kids are growing and how life is in continuous change. Not complaining, it is fun to watch the kids flourish. I just wish there was a pause button, or slow button, that is all. I had been warned at how quickly things would go, however I didn't comprehend what that entailed, or that it applied to me as everyone else.
For mothers day our oldest planned a beautiful picnic at her mothers grave site with her siblings out there. I am sure their mother cherished the moment with her children close and those they are bringing into our family! We talked to our missionary, it was great hearing form him and seeing how he is growing, what a great young man! My children spoiled me as well.
I feel extremely blessed at this point in my life. I have an amazing family, both right here and extended. I am surrounded by wonderful people, friends and an extraordinary ward family.
I became a grandmother in January! Our oldest son and his wife added a beautiful little girl to our growing family! She has the most contagious smile! Our son and his wife are the cutest parents, they are doing great! The grand baby loves having her parents sing to her and she knows they love her to pieces. What more can a little one ask for.
Our Second daughter was unexpectedly swept away by the man of her dreams. It has been a pleasant surprise, and as a parent so fun to watch. He treats her like his queen, and she lives up to the title beautifully. They will be tying the knot here this month and we are so excited for both of them!
Also in January our Second son and his wife started a new adventure further from home. Luckily not as distant as the others. He is only 45 minutes away. It has been pleasant to see how he and his wife are becoming their own adulting selves. they are flourishing there, and everyone I talk to adores them almost as much as I do. I love it when others see in my loved ones what I see in them. even better is when they notice things I have not yet discovered. Seriously, the church is such a blessing!
Our oldest at home right now will be going into middle school this year! I am a little freaked out at how quickly these kids are growing and how life is in continuous change. Not complaining, it is fun to watch the kids flourish. I just wish there was a pause button, or slow button, that is all. I had been warned at how quickly things would go, however I didn't comprehend what that entailed, or that it applied to me as everyone else.
For mothers day our oldest planned a beautiful picnic at her mothers grave site with her siblings out there. I am sure their mother cherished the moment with her children close and those they are bringing into our family! We talked to our missionary, it was great hearing form him and seeing how he is growing, what a great young man! My children spoiled me as well.
I feel extremely blessed at this point in my life. I have an amazing family, both right here and extended. I am surrounded by wonderful people, friends and an extraordinary ward family.
Anxiety
Anxiety is a weird thing. I haven't felt it for quite some time. Then this morning...WHAM! I don't feel like I have anything to be anxious about, but I can't seem to calm myself. Being 41 is killing me! I guess every day lived is closer to death. Today though...*sigh*.
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