My mind has been all over the place the past couple of days. I have done and said things in the past I have no way of taking back. Some of it I wouldn't. Not out of pride, rather because of belief. Then there are other things I have said I wish I had never spoke.
Many times I find myself on the out side looking in. In most realities being in the in wouldn't bring me any sense of happiness. So why is it I stand at the window looking in? I have so many things to be grateful for. I know it is cliche, but I am married to my best friend. My children being sun on cloudy days. My step children amaze me. I love more than anything when some or all of us are able to get together. Sure it gets a bit chaotic, but dang everyone is mostly happy and they all love one another.
I look back in the past and sometimes wish some things had not changed. But some of those things did not bring any sort of pleasantries, so I am not sure why I feel like I long for it the way I do at times. It is odd.
There are times I feel an urge, a desire for moments, friendships, the past. I yearn for something that was... is out of reach, yet it isn't my deepest desire. I look at where God has brought me and wonder where he intends to take me. I wonder what some of the lessons were to be learned? Were they mine? Or were they the lessons of another? And if so the other, is there something I should try to take from it?
Sometimes I feel so small and yet so big. In the whole picture I wonder what differences I have made and am I doing all I can. It's overwhelming to think I have more potential than I use. How do I make the most of the gifts I have been given?
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Giving with out Expecting
At times I catch myself (shamefully) with the attitude of; "whats in it for me?" When I catch myself thinking this way, I try to change. Why? Because I know the Savior didn't ask that. He gave his life out of love. He gave it for me, for you, and each of us who are willing to accept his sacrifice. He did it out of love. He knew we didn't qualify for it per sei, but he offered it so we could have a chance. A chance to return To Him and our Father.
Several of my friends have posted this lately on facebook, and I LOVE it! Because what am I doing in return for the greatest gift given to me? We are taught in the scriptures that as we do unto others we are doing unto him. Looking around I see so many blessings he has blessed me with. With that, what am I doing to forward the thanks?
Several of my friends have posted this lately on facebook, and I LOVE it! Because what am I doing in return for the greatest gift given to me? We are taught in the scriptures that as we do unto others we are doing unto him. Looking around I see so many blessings he has blessed me with. With that, what am I doing to forward the thanks?
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Lesson's in Life
I had a friend post this link on facebook. I felt it to the core as I read it. My cross I have been asked to bare is not the same as hers, however I feel the lesson is the same. She put it so beautifully I won't even try to compete, so here, enjoy:
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