Consider yourself warned. So, I went to the gym today. I had planned that I would swim laps for an hour. I was stoked, back in the day(in college) I loved swimming laps! My room mates mom taught me how to do it correctly and I just loved the way I felt when all was said and done.
I hopped into the pool feeling pumped and ready to go, but half way through the second lap I felt like I could just die! Seriously, who said life could catch up to me like this? Earlier on in the week I went to do a kick boxing class. I made it only 15 min. before I had to quit. Catching my breath was really not going so good. Besides, every time I looked in the mirror I saw these other ladies with dainty ankles, and thin legs. When I looked at me I could see things jiggling, I feel like my legs look like elephant leg stumps that have been through a major hail storm...which is entirely possible out here(no offense to elephants, it looks good on them, but I am having a hard time pulling it off.) So I bowed out and went to the treadmill instead. Today once again I had to take a bow and joined the Senior ladies and they did their winding down stretches. Once I was able to catch my breath again I went and did 5 more laps.
The most frustrating thing about this whole thing is, 20 years ago I could decide I was going to do something and do it. Today I want to do something and I am giving my whole effort, and then a lung, an arm, leg, almost my life. People have warned me of this, that age does strange things to us. I wish I had listened more carefully. I am going to get myself so I can do what I want again, and I plan on persevering, but it stinks that I haven't taken better care of myself. It stinks to look in the mirror and see where age has taken me, though some of it I have rightfully earned through giving life to 3 precious children. There is hope though. I know if I keep things up I am going to be feeling better, and even if the elephant legs with hail damage remain I will be setting an example for my kiddos, and like I said I will be feeling better as well.
Thanks for ranting. I feel the same way, and that's one reason I haven't joined a gym. Other reasons include paying for childcare, and actually paying money to exercise. However, I am failing at doing it by myself at home. My living room is too small to do it with my kids because I run into them while doing the moves, and at night when they are in bed I am just too tired and lazy. Bedtime is "me" time, and I certainly don't want to spend it exercising. I'd rather have some sugary carbs that I don't have to share and watch tv. So, GOOD FOR YOU!!!! It may not be what you want, but you are doing something. You have to start somewhere, so anything is better than nothing. Good luck!!!
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