Learning

I was looking back the other day while visiting with a new found friend and realized This past year has been a year of learning. Some of the lessons have been painful, but I have made it, and I think and hope I am coming out better for it. I realize this isn't the end of my career when it comes to learning, however I am learning and that is progress. Right?

It seems like some of life's lessons are the hardest. When I pass through these trails or lessons however is when I feel the Savior's love for me as an individual. When I look back I realize how aware my Heavenly Father is of me as an individual. As I read and study the scriptures I become keenly aware of the love our Savior has for us...for me.

At church I have the privilege of teaching the 10 and 11 year olds. This year we are studying the New Testament. During our first lesson, one of the children asked me if the Savior was scared to fulfill His promise to us? The question took me back in time to when I had purposed the same question to a leader of mine. He asked me a couple questions. Was the Savior perfect? Yes. Did he ever make a mistake? Most likely not. Then had he ever experienced guilt? Pain? Or conscience as we do? Again probably not.

He then opened the scriptures. Turning to Matthew 26: 36-44 we read that it takes Christ three attempts to fulfill His promise. My leader asked me if I could imagine how Christ who was perfect felt as the weight of our sins, our pain and suffering weighed upon him? He had never before experienced it for himself, and now He was experiencing it for all of us.Then, turning to Luke 22, My leader showed how the Savior was sent comfort in the form of an angel to provide strength as He suffered for us.

I am finding through some of my own experiences that others don't or can't understand. Because of the teaching my leader showed me I find it is okay though, I can then turn to my older Brother and Father for direction and comfort. When I rely on then, they are able to administer to me in ways that no man or human being can. I have found through studying the scriptures, kneeling in prayer, wise friends and priesthood blessings that Heavenly Father speaks to me and teaches me with patience and love that only a loving Father can.